i don’t understand what i am doing.
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i’m moving without moving while the world behind me is falling apart. each evening seems more like the last.
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@balthazar with greasy hair and dirty blck clothes i eat some lamb. dinner is over. we leave a tip. the economy is failing. the party is over.
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today, i interview 3 of the ten members of straight no chaser – randy, ryan, and walter. the interview goes great. because they’re all great guys. later i am working at my desk listening to peter kernel. and even later i am revising something i’ve been working on since i was thirteen. all this takes time. i remember, i remember, i remember everything.
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at work, people play beer bong. then flip cup. while blasting hip-hop. deciding to leave i am leaving ridding in a cab sneering, kind of like iggy pop in that teddybears music video.
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my friend is talking into her wireless phone telling me about her friend who wants to assassinate barack hussein obama. tomorrow will be my 7,592 day alive.
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most of the weekend is spent in massachusetts.
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halloween is an exceptional day and things look funny because of it. people have more reasons to talk to each other, to smile, and to enjoy all this commonplace stuff.